code name: agent CID age: 14, 20, 40, 9, or maybe 200. depends on the way she dresses REAL age: ohhh...you should've said so earlier on. sorry, this is highly confidential and any leak of her personal information may cause serious detrimental damage About her(or him) she loves dramas. dramas, sleeping and eating are an important part of her daily life. when she's not on a mission, agent CID dresses in school uniform(or maybe..a nurse's uniform. very clever) she is part of the well-know four person team whose name cannot be mentioned here.she may come across as fat, wonky and alittle eccentric but BEWARE she is not at all what she seems.

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and i feared i'd never cry... why did i cry? what did i cry for? was it the class? or was it because of the fear? did i truly cry because i was sad, or because i was scared?

A few china PRCs came to our class on tuesday and i was kinda excited but then again, it wasn't as fun as i'd thought. they were kinda quiet and everything.

Everyday, i'll wake up feeling sooo tired, but then i'll think of 2J and i'll pull myself out of bed just to get to school so i get to see the class, to be with the class. Everyday, no matter how tired or how painful it was, i did. but when i get to class and i see the same ol' people, i suddenly forgot what i planned to do. i planned to treasure every moment. i planned to hold on to every second i had left with the class. but then i forgot. i always forget.
what the heck was i doing, reciting my monologue and heck-caring about the history play. what the heck was i doing ignoring everyone that wanted to speak to me. what the heck was i doing, throwing away precious time left with the class? what the heck?! i don't like it when i want to treasure something but don't feel like it. it's like i know i'm dying but i don't feel nervous and don't try to save myself until the very last minute when i realise that i am not going to make it. i hate this feeling. the feeling of regret. it's like i could do something, but i chose not to.

anyway, we kinda screw up the history play and we did curry chicken during home econs and you know what? mrs tan GL (amazingly)didn't criticise me for my hair. well, that's cause yijie brought her awesome hairband tht she bought frm china ^^thks yijie! the curry was awesome too, like much much much nicer than the one my mum cooks XP
but then mrs tan dragged the lesson for like over twenty minutes and we only had so little time for LA lesson. we watched "life is beautiful", that show is amazing. i told you mr chow has good taste ^^ haha. anyway, then had CID so went down. we watched this maths documentary and was quite okay, just that the room was air conditioned and the lights were dimmed so i was like falling asleep. then went to library, read monologue. had lunch, read monologue again. had HCL, read monologue. =.= then had cca and i was damn nervous cause i wasn't confident of delivering the monologue properly. i wanted to get into syf so damn bad i couldnt sfford to lose. in the end, we did warm ups then ms ross came and she split us up. the shortlisted ones wouldd read the two scripts and the un-shortlisted ones would have to prepare for open house item. since yijie and i both got shortlisted (:D)we went to get a copy of "teechers" and "those who can't teach". "those who cant teach" is an awesome script and it was so cute but kinda ironic cause the script was about this neighbourhood school trying desperately to excel in stuff so they can gain autonomous status. i can't understand "teechers" though. really really chim stuff. like bullocks. no it doesn't have an "x". what is that anyway...
then we went to the canteen and did the open house item...hehe really cool. people were staring and stuff. :D but shall keep it a secret so it's a surprise.
aft cca went to eat with el^^ love those sessions:)

then wednesday had cleaning day but i totally forgot to bring PE! but good thing i brought house tee, so borrowed blue skirt from valencia (thks valencia!^^)cause i was wearing blue home shorts with YELLOW stripes 0.0 i wasn't going to show tht to everyone. anyway it was quite fun, the cleaning up i mean, not the borrowing skirt part. i scrubbed walls and stuff and that yijie went to use the dirtied tissue to TOUCH MY FACE. like i wasnt pimply enough =.= so i ran after her trying to get my revenge. then there was this weird insect that was flying right infront of me when i was running so i was like "omg!" but i guess the insect had a pretty weak heart, it got scared by me and bumped into the pillar. then it like dropped onto the ground. THEN...JANSSEN, you know like janssen, he threw a cloth, WENT OVER, squat down and PICKED UP THE INSECT FROM UNDER THE CLOTH WITH HIS BARE HANDS AND THE HE WENT, "EH GORDON! I FOUND A cool insect." and raised the insect like a prized trophy. i was so stunned my mouth was actually half hanging open. ANYWAY, went for the fashion show and wayang kulit @ the auditorium. siwai was really pretty canz... and i did cheer. anyway, the wayang kulit was also quite cute :D laughed alot cause the plots all abit cliche one. oh and yijie was abusing me all the time, i wanted to die alr. then had an hour of lunch, then had conflict management course. did this weird debate that had no link to conflict management. like the topic was, "the love of money is the root of all evil" we're opp. and the other topic that the others did was ," guys are more resilient than girls" =.= weird topics i must say. and got tricked by valencia AGAIN =.= haish. went to eat at sakae with yijie and ate 24 plates + udon + ice cream and i bought coke that comes in this really cute glass coke bottle that we used to play truth or dare. and also played with the computer thingy and had to guess which was the most expensive item. i actually lost like the most of it and had to eat like uber lot of sushi. yijie forced the last tuna sushi down my throat. it was so horrible cause i was exploding alr. i brought the cute bottle back^^ ate til really full and had lots of fun cause we couldnt stop laughing when we got super full and stuff. then yushan also came to our house today to give candy ^^ um the rock candies...
then we tried to solve this P5 maths question with algebra but failed miserably. bleh... and i thought algebra could be used to sove anything... sorry algebra, you lost to p5 math method of branching manz. i'm so disappointed in you... haha... anyway yup, then gave up and yushan went back. i slept at 11.

woke up this morning and went to school. was kinda chaotic in the morning at home cause i realised many things were missing. went to school and met el at benches. mr chow briefed us on syf stuff and said there would be another session for cast selection. i dont think i'll be able to make it even though i want it so bad. and there'll be boot camp plus many many other training stuff for cast. he rattled on about all the dates which i didn't and couldn't remember. went for assembly and then went for mr kohs talk! we missed science and din get to watch the rest of "every singaporean son." and din get to see mr xiong :( so couldnt say goodbye. mr koh was talking about results and BGR. he said that he would allow it when we turn 17. he even said he would be willing to let couples stay in hostel rooms( erhem to study) together WHEN we turn 17. like wth? okay, it's like what inappropriate stuff, we have minors you know.
anyway, then went back to class and had geog lesson. i was passing around the photos for ppl to sign and stuff. omg i really dont want to die cause of global warming man. then had recess, then had gamelan music and cant play gong man. the teacher kept getting me to hit harder. today was the assessment, i think i did okay (: then had maths and chinese. took pics with teachers and cheered for teachers. soon, it was the last lesson and we were singing "tian shi" for wu lao shi. then ppl went around hugging other people. then people started crying... and then I STARTED CRYING. LIKE BUCKETS OF TEARS. UNSTOPPABLE. i can't imagine life without SYNC, i can't imagine life without 2J. i hate having to start all over again. i don't want to and i hate it. why can't we stay together? omg, i started crying thinking of all the times 2J and sync and everyone else, all the times that we shared. we did orientation. we did competitions. even though i never did fit in because i was not sporty, even though i was never in competitions, even though i never said it, but everytime 2J wins something, which we always do, i can't help but feel really proud. it wasn't only their win, it was our win. some teacher said that the people in our class look out for each other and i so totally agree. i dont think i'll find a better class than 2J. i'll never forget you guys. i LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOOO MUCH. i finally realised that when we were gathered in the class group hug. when people were "ehhh"ing, i couldn't help but cry. i was crying and crying because i felt in the circle again. i felt like i belonged here, with the rest of the people but we wont be doing it again.

"ehhh"

i kept crying

"ehhhhh"

tears kept falling

"ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
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"TWO JAY!"

we have one last day.
i have one more chance.
tomorrow, we shall have a perfect ending to a beautiful memory... back to top?