code name: agent CID age: 14, 20, 40, 9, or maybe 200. depends on the way she dresses REAL age: ohhh...you should've said so earlier on. sorry, this is highly confidential and any leak of her personal information may cause serious detrimental damage About her(or him) she loves dramas. dramas, sleeping and eating are an important part of her daily life. when she's not on a mission, agent CID dresses in school uniform(or maybe..a nurse's uniform. very clever) she is part of the well-know four person team whose name cannot be mentioned here.she may come across as fat, wonky and alittle eccentric but BEWARE she is not at all what she seems.

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I JUST FOUND OUT THIS REALLY AMAZING THING~ DID YOU KNOW 17 IS ACTUALLY A SACRED NUMBER AND IT GIVES OFF A GOOD VIBE OR STH? no cause i was reading the horoscopes thingy and they kept mentioning 17 in their dates so i went to check out my birthday and yes i found out i have a really good birthday that actually gives me good luck or something. wow. i think my mum is like amazing now. how on earth, and of all days, did she manage to give birth to me on this day? isnt this really cool?
and i don't know why but everytime my name's mentioned in something (even when i know it's not even about me) i take it personally. that is really weird. shane kept posting on fb about how much he hates chelsea (oh i do not stalk him, it appeared on my news feed. yes it really did! oh don't give me that look...) and i know he's not talking about me but everytime i see my name i feel dread. and i'll go, " oh, oh my gosh. is that me?" and then i'll realise it's not me and i'll go, "ohh~ it's not about me but you shouldnt say that about her anyway. that's so evil of you. poor chelsea." i have no idea why it's like that. is it like that with other people too? poor all "justins" or maybe all "biebers".... my heart goes out to you all...
and if you were wondering. no, i do not hate justin bieber. although i know many who does. the only reason why i tease him is because it's fun. just kidding. I don't hate him, really. But i really won't say he's just a poor poor kid and people shouldnt flame him cause he's young. he's not YOUNG, and his voice is BREAKING for christ's sake. okay, now im sounding like this cold heartless jerk who doesnt give a damn about other people's sufferings. why am i talking like this anyway? it's weird like... i just...suddenly adopted a new way of speaking(!) is that suppossed to be normal? anyway, back to where we stopped.
Justin Bieber is just another (i will not say "kid") person, with a dream. and the world IS that cruel and judgemental. it's hard being famous without being hated by some. okay, maybe the youtube videos gathered more dislike than likes but does that matter? What has he done wrong? i have no idea but i know, the world is unfair like that. when you've done something bad, you're hated. and even when you've done nothing bad, you're STILL hated. Nobody can stop anybody from hating anyone. there musn't be a reason for you to hate, just like there isnt any reason for you to love. so justin bieber, don't take it seriously. you still have tons of fans, and even more so now that you're breaking your voice.

the only certainty in life is death.

this has no relevance to the above passage whatsoever but it just invaded my brain and eradicated all other "inferior" thoughts. wow. i see that it has a big ego because it just decided to bold itself.
now what shall i do with this thing at the centre of my screen, demanding for my attention?
should i like, analyse (with a "z" or an "s"? and why does it look weird? did i spell it wrongly?) it or something? is that what you're suppossed to do when you have a really weird and random thought?
oh my gosh poor damon! D': in case you're wondering, i just went to read natalie's fb status and realised that damon is an amazing giver. how does he do that? :O i can't believe i thought he wasnt hot, yes he is totally hot now...
anyway, i figured out that i was crying over this book called "love, rosie" because i realised the love between the two "best friends" is really amazing. it's really beautiful and selfless like damon's love towards elena. and they had a happy ending and i cried and cried and cried. i never thought love like that would be possible. they loved each other throughout for 50 years but could only be best friends, watching their friend get married, moving away, having children, getting divorced, and then married again, then losing their job....through it all, the two were always there when the other needed it. and then in the end, they finally confessed and then got together when they're 50 and their kids are ready to have kids of their own but it didnt matter cause they're together at last. i wish i could have a beautiul relationship like this one....
yes, the invading selfish thought mr. the only certainty in life is death cowered when he saw the power of selfless love. with love, it doesnt matter if one is alive or dead because love remains anyway, anyhow, in one way or another. you'll find love in the sky, the trees, the birds, the clouds, the flowers, the animals, in photos and in other loved ones because love stays on forever. true love stays on forever. and with this love, you would find that you'll be able to forgive and embrace the killer of your lover, the cruelty of the world and find peace in your soul. the most beautiful love there is that whose very shadow would scare hatred off the boundaries of this earth. does the love like this exist? will i experience it for myself? because i want to see for myself, how the world looks like when hatred doesnt exist.

sometimes i wonder if im being too assertive, maybe too pushy and being too initiative about things that i scare people off...am i too pushy bossy cold aloof and "other worldly" as my horoscope suggests? "other worldly" as in... too detached from the world? like weird or something? i dont know who to be sometimes, like am i suppossed to just be like that or am i suppossed to change? i have no idea, every word i speak, every action i do, is done with a very confused mindstate. i am confused. i am really confused about who i should be, how i should act. it's like multiple personality disorder, it's just that i'm actually able to control the personality switch. it's like one day im cold and aloof, and the next i'm surprisingly sociable and mix with people so well i feel like im a natural communicator. there are times when i have to choose who i want to become at the start of the day, like should i be miss-i'm-so-high-and-noble-i-won't-even-talk-to-you or if i should be miss-oh-so-sensitive-and-shy-that-i'm-afraid-that-my-fragile-heart-would-break-if-you-even-talk-to-me or maybe miss-i'm-so-totally-eccentric-and-hyper-i-practically-laugh-all-the-time. what? it's not like i'm choosing clothes or something?! why is this happening? isnt your personality something that comes naturally to you without even having you think about it? and i actually get to PICK my personality and change into it like changing into clothes. i even act and speak differently when im being a particular personality. i think my friends are so utterly confused that they don't know who i am anymore. even i don't even know, beneath the clothes that i don, who am i actually. WHO EXACTLY AM I? WHAT AM I DOING HERE TRYING ON DIFFERENT PERSONLAITIES? DON'T I HAVE MY OWN PERSONALITY? AM I LIKE SUPPOSSED TO GO THROUGH SOME SELF-DISCOVERY RITUAL TO DISCOVER MY REAL PERSONALITY? IS THIS EVEN NORMAL?!
i guess that's what my horoscope means by "other worldly" huh?

anyway, gonna post this before i get no internet connection.
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