code name: agent CID age: 14, 20, 40, 9, or maybe 200. depends on the way she dresses REAL age: ohhh...you should've said so earlier on. sorry, this is highly confidential and any leak of her personal information may cause serious detrimental damage About her(or him) she loves dramas. dramas, sleeping and eating are an important part of her daily life. when she's not on a mission, agent CID dresses in school uniform(or maybe..a nurse's uniform. very clever) she is part of the well-know four person team whose name cannot be mentioned here.she may come across as fat, wonky and alittle eccentric but BEWARE she is not at all what she seems.

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To me what life is really all about is just finding out the reason for the very existence of your being. Whether your presence is significant, whether it is really necessary. And that is exactly what millions and billions of people, for countless centuries over various continents have been relentlessly pursuing. The understanding of life. And perhaps the surprisingly insignificant reason behind it. I mean, does it really matter why we're here as to what we can do here? On the other hand, if there isn't (and maybe there wasn't one in the first place) a reason as to why we're here, it'll be like( pardon my less than apt analogy) locking you in a room, then giving you two hours, plus maybe a stack of completely blank paper and then not giving you a question. You'd be completely dumbfounded and not to say-utterly confused. Even if you had that two hours, the two hours that you could've spent on folding a million paper cranes or maybe finding out a new super-secret way to folding paper aero planes "for dummies", publishing the book which might become a mega hit. ( Or am I wrong? Is there already a book like that?) or at least doing something constructive with the time. BUT NO. YOU SPENT THE TWO HOURS WONDERING WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THE PAPER AND WHY YOU WERE MYSTERIOUSLY BROUGHT TO A STRANGE ROOM AND THEN HANDED A STACK OF SEEMINGLY NORMAL (or is it?) BLANK PAPER. AND THEN TIMED. And then when your time's up, the guy comes back in and brings you out. You're out. And you're still confused. because no one really stopped to explain what this was really all about. and the truth is, no one would. And before we come to realise that our life is ultimately going to be in our own hands and nobody actually has the answers that you're dying to know. We would forever be stuck. Ultimately, when it boils down to reality, none of that is really all that important after all. With or without an answer, life goes on and we have to learn to live with it. On the other hand, if you do manage to find the answers someday, any day, remember to come knocking on my door because I'd like to know it too. why after all, the joy of life is living the unknown but also forever looking out for the answers. I'd like to know, for once, what's life like in the eyes of one who already knows all it's secrets.

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Hmmm…my day was:

Just finished guitar camp today :D it was a pretty tiring day but had a huge sense of satisfaction when I learnt and did manage (to much difficulty) to play the chords of fifteen on the guitar^^MY FINGERS ARE PRETTY MUCH USELESS NOW. They're much too numb, hard and painful to use. but i really liked strumming on the guitar :) maybe i would pick up guitar too?
Had fun collaborating with Magdalene I guess, but could still sense the awkwardness between us. Made some pretty cool friends, although I'm still hesitant to actually call them friends (by my standards) but yea ^^ the two days have been quite rewarding. Still have tons of homework to complete before the hols end. Didn't spend more time with Yijie D: let's go out again? no more tony and guy =.= looking forward to the hwa chong play^^ I want to watch beauty king so badly too. but no. they needed to have an age limit for that. =.= too. I can't believe that the holidays are ending already and I haven't done any satisfying drama watching yet. NOTYET! if only i could make time tick by slower i would... actually, i wouldn't do anything different. but yea. it's good to know that i still have tons of time left. i was wondering about how life would be like if you could live forever. probably won't be much in a rush to do anything. i probably wouldn't get anything done. since i already have difficulty doing so even when there's one.

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Actually, I was thinking:

"I don't know how to do anything anymore. It seems like the harder I try to find myself, I lose myself more and more. The me now that you see, is probably not me, but a me that was designed by myself to be a more likable me but perhaps a me, that would never be able to open her heart to anyone else. anymore. Not because she won't, but because she can't"

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that song I can't seem to get out of my head:
{Coming home-cover by jayesslee }


by the way, if you were thinking about my new blogging style. it's not that i've suddenly developed a strange liking for headings. it's just that i was typing this on microsoft OneNote and i had all sorts of random thoughts i thought it would be nice to just catogorise that for easy reading and cause i can just move the different parts around. yea. so no, i haven't gone crazy.
not yet anyway... back to top?