code name: agent CID age: 14, 20, 40, 9, or maybe 200. depends on the way she dresses REAL age: ohhh...you should've said so earlier on. sorry, this is highly confidential and any leak of her personal information may cause serious detrimental damage About her(or him) she loves dramas. dramas, sleeping and eating are an important part of her daily life. when she's not on a mission, agent CID dresses in school uniform(or maybe..a nurse's uniform. very clever) she is part of the well-know four person team whose name cannot be mentioned here.she may come across as fat, wonky and alittle eccentric but BEWARE she is not at all what she seems.

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To me what life is really all about is just finding out the reason for the very existence of your being. Whether your presence is significant, whether it is really necessary. And that is exactly what millions and billions of people, for countless centuries over various continents have been relentlessly pursuing. The understanding of life. And perhaps the surprisingly insignificant reason behind it. I mean, does it really matter why we're here as to what we can do here? On the other hand, if there isn't (and maybe there wasn't one in the first place) a reason as to why we're here, it'll be like( pardon my less than apt analogy) locking you in a room, then giving you two hours, plus maybe a stack of completely blank paper and then not giving you a question. You'd be completely dumbfounded and not to say-utterly confused. Even if you had that two hours, the two hours that you could've spent on folding a million paper cranes or maybe finding out a new super-secret way to folding paper aero planes "for dummies", publishing the book which might become a mega hit. ( Or am I wrong? Is there already a book like that?) or at least doing something constructive with the time. BUT NO. YOU SPENT THE TWO HOURS WONDERING WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THE PAPER AND WHY YOU WERE MYSTERIOUSLY BROUGHT TO A STRANGE ROOM AND THEN HANDED A STACK OF SEEMINGLY NORMAL (or is it?) BLANK PAPER. AND THEN TIMED. And then when your time's up, the guy comes back in and brings you out. You're out. And you're still confused. because no one really stopped to explain what this was really all about. and the truth is, no one would. And before we come to realise that our life is ultimately going to be in our own hands and nobody actually has the answers that you're dying to know. We would forever be stuck. Ultimately, when it boils down to reality, none of that is really all that important after all. With or without an answer, life goes on and we have to learn to live with it. On the other hand, if you do manage to find the answers someday, any day, remember to come knocking on my door because I'd like to know it too. why after all, the joy of life is living the unknown but also forever looking out for the answers. I'd like to know, for once, what's life like in the eyes of one who already knows all it's secrets.

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Hmmm…my day was:

Just finished guitar camp today :D it was a pretty tiring day but had a huge sense of satisfaction when I learnt and did manage (to much difficulty) to play the chords of fifteen on the guitar^^MY FINGERS ARE PRETTY MUCH USELESS NOW. They're much too numb, hard and painful to use. but i really liked strumming on the guitar :) maybe i would pick up guitar too?
Had fun collaborating with Magdalene I guess, but could still sense the awkwardness between us. Made some pretty cool friends, although I'm still hesitant to actually call them friends (by my standards) but yea ^^ the two days have been quite rewarding. Still have tons of homework to complete before the hols end. Didn't spend more time with Yijie D: let's go out again? no more tony and guy =.= looking forward to the hwa chong play^^ I want to watch beauty king so badly too. but no. they needed to have an age limit for that. =.= too. I can't believe that the holidays are ending already and I haven't done any satisfying drama watching yet. NOTYET! if only i could make time tick by slower i would... actually, i wouldn't do anything different. but yea. it's good to know that i still have tons of time left. i was wondering about how life would be like if you could live forever. probably won't be much in a rush to do anything. i probably wouldn't get anything done. since i already have difficulty doing so even when there's one.

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Actually, I was thinking:

"I don't know how to do anything anymore. It seems like the harder I try to find myself, I lose myself more and more. The me now that you see, is probably not me, but a me that was designed by myself to be a more likable me but perhaps a me, that would never be able to open her heart to anyone else. anymore. Not because she won't, but because she can't"

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that song I can't seem to get out of my head:
{Coming home-cover by jayesslee }


by the way, if you were thinking about my new blogging style. it's not that i've suddenly developed a strange liking for headings. it's just that i was typing this on microsoft OneNote and i had all sorts of random thoughts i thought it would be nice to just catogorise that for easy reading and cause i can just move the different parts around. yea. so no, i haven't gone crazy.
not yet anyway... back to top?

WAS THE MOST AWESOME ONE WEEK OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. will post another time... but first. better save link of where all the photos are:

https://picasaweb.google.com/natnayrb/2011VietnamTrip1?feat=directlink#5612193680291630450

https://picasaweb.google.com/natnayrb/2011VietnamTrip2?feat=directlink#

untill then! :D back to top?

omg watched lion king the musical today
and it was freaking awesome.
need i say more? back to top?

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg..... the performance is tomorrow.... and im freaking out... what if i forget my lines?????? :OOOOOOOO
I SHOULD'VE PANICKED EARLIER OR SOMETHING....
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG T.T OKAY OKAY. RELAX. RELAX. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT. AHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOO THIS STUPID THING DOESNT WORK!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG...

anyway... i think "king of anything" is rlly nice :DD




i like the music video but i think the clothes are abit....

okay, so what i will do now, is to go and listen to king of anything for another hundred times or so until it's firmly stuck in my head and then i'll not think about the play anymore. yes. that's it. okay. i shall go listen to it now...

oh yea and btw, i think Sam Tsui is so amazing. how is it even possible that he's not famous or sth.... BAD TASTE MAN.

"who cares if you disagree...you are not me... who made you king of anything"~

:DD back to top?

okay. so there's a 8.9 earthquake in japan.
and its causing a tsunami in many other countries
this is probably the right time to say, "hey, i told you so"
today is probably gonna be one of the most devastating days of year.
i'm saying this in advance before the news reports it later in the day.
but yea...let's put our hands together and pray...
im hoping the world's not gonna end in 2012. but it seems like i may be wrong.
very. very. wrong. back to top?

i am in class 3c
i was from class 2J
i am not in 2J anymore
i am in year 3 now
i am still register no. 11
but register no. 1 is not shiying
and register no. 34 is not haoyu
register no. 2 is not siwai
no. 5 is not hanen
no.9 is not natalie
no. 13 is not valencia
and no. 20 is not yijie

i have to keep reminding myself that. in case i forget and think that i'm just dreaming.
(if you think this is familiar, you stalk my facebook.)

class is okay~ not too bad i guess... i have nice teachers? uh yeah... and 7 china PRC scholars
did i tell you i love PRC scholars?
i also love my chinese teacher(!) kinda reminds me of lin lao shi. he's like the most awesomest teacher in the whole wide entire world ^^haha :D
anyway yea, i needa buck up on my chinese big time. so come to me~ china prcs...
i have also decided
drumrolls please~






to become a psychiatrist

cause of my rv lit class...
the rv lit class de teacher also very awesome
i dont get why everyone thinks that she is boring
i think its rlly interesting
i do not want to become a banana
do you know what a banana is?
皮肤是黄的
但里面（心里）是白的

i will love chinese and embrace chinese because it's my roots.
and it rocks.
i don't care what you say.
because i'll still love it all the same
go asians!
go chinese!
go me!

haha i was just being lame.
(as you can already probably tell)
anw... the chinese teacher played jay chou's mv in class
and i was totally not paying attention.
plus
he's like you know, 口齿不清
cant even understand what he's saying.
and i couldnt see the onscreen lyrics cause its so incredibly tiny.




here's the video.
and if you were wondering, no. this wasn't the same video
this has much bigger lyrics... :)
then the teacher got us to write down on sentence which left the deepest impression on us.
and then we had to explain why.
i had no idea what to write so i just you know, scribbled sth hoping th teacher wont call on me.
she didnt.

anw, classes are okay~
school is okay~
just okay... not exactly good, but not exactly bad either.
and i really hate that my class is so quiet D:
i miss 2J
i miss sync sososososos much
like yilin goes out with her clique for every break and i have to follow cause you know, i dont rlly have much of a choice. i mean, i dont thhink its bad, i just feel out of place like its not really where i belong. and then everytime i go home with sync, i'll feel like i'm neglecting my class. i want to have both, but i can't.
at least we have PE lessons tgt right? :D
anw, weekends are here and i can finally take a breather.

that's why i don't like changes heh.
they're too tiring. back to top?

3 Teens found alive after 50 days at sea (November 25, 2010) CBS news
An article review
As Bern Williams once said, “Man never made any material as resilient as the human spirit.” And indeed, the human spirit has seen desperate souls through desperate times, making the impossible seem possible and creating magical moments of a breakthrough when all hope was lost- Miracles, as we call them. This is yet another story of the human spirit in action, the incredible story of survival without resources for fifty days in a small boat. This is the story of three ordinary teenage boys who have gone through some rough times and surprisingly came out alive.
Three teenage boys, Samuel Pelesa, Filo Filo, (both 15) and Edward Nasau (14) were attempting to row between two island in new Zealand but ended up getting lost in the desolated waters of pacific northeast of Fiji. Fifty days they spent on the small boat, surviving solely on rainwater, some coconuts, some fishes that they caught and a seagull. Their desperate parents have long given up the search and already held funeral services for the boys. When the boys realised that the rain had stopped and their fresh water supply was cut short, they relied on seawater to quench their thirst. They also did not have much more coconuts to last them any longer but just when they thought that their luck was up and had little hope in surviving, they came across a tuna boat and frantically waved for help. The crew of the tuna boat spotted them and rescued the boys before any detrimental damage to their health was done. The boys, when rescued, were physically drained but were elated that they survived. The boys’ parents were also delighted to have their boys back. It was, as Tanu Filo (Filo Filo’s father) had said, “A miracle” indeed.
I was very inspired by this article because it has shown me that miracles do happen when you have faith and when you never stop trying. The three teenage boys have beaten all odds and returned home in amazingly good condition given that they had spent fifty days adrift in a boat with no supplies. And this is truly the human spirit at work. It shows that If you are determined, anything could and would happen. Nobody would have thought that they would survive this long out at sea, nobody thought that it was possible to have them returned in such good health. But despite everything that they’ve gone through, they did! They suffered and toiled and waited but they never gave up trying. Although they didn’t know how long they had to wait and although they had no idea if they’d ever be rescued, they didn’t give up on life and they didn’t give up on hope. They took on living life on the sea as a challenge they had to overcome, and held undying faith in life as though they knew they would be rescued tomorrow. I feel that this wasn’t a miracle but rather, the evident powers of the human spirit. Many a times, people give up too easily. When we face setbacks, we falter and fall. It is precisely because of the lack of resilience of the mind, the lack of strength in the spirit that causes us to fall and never want to get back up again, to be fearful of failing before we even started trying, to live life so miserably because we think it’s too hard living. In truth, nothing is too hard if we dare to try and when we choose to believe. The boys believed that so long as they live, there will be hope. Sadly, nowadays this mindset can rarely be found in the people of our generation. We see our death tolls rising, day by day. We see the old grieving over the young and people forever grieving about their lives as though it was a punishment to be living. People have become too weak to even withstand small setbacks, contemplating death over small issues. I wonder if this is happening because of the great comfort of modern life that people have lost the ability to be resilient. After all, resilience is trained and tested in the presence of setbacks. In the gaining of technology, have we instead lost something more valuable to humankind?


‘Not unusual’ for maids to fake their age (Saturday, December 25, 2010) the straits times
An article review
Would you place your child in the care of a teenager who is only sixteen? Would you trust a teenager to run the household for you, getting her to run errands for you? I believe many people wouldn’t but some already unknowingly did.
Maids, especially more so to families with fully working parents, play a great role in the up keeping of the household. With better workers’ welfare and more educated employers, maids now enjoy a better working environment as most employers are warned of the severity of maid abuse and have learnt to trust their maids more. However, as employers learnt to take into consideration their maids’ welfare, have we forgotten to take into consideration, the welfare of the employers?
Nurhayati, the Indonesian maid was recently under the spotlight for the murder case of the young child of her employers. If that was not shocking enough, she is only 16. Not the child, the maid. The maid agency professed that it was difficult to track down the maids’ ages as most of them come from villages and do not have birth certificates. When the maids want to get their passports done, most of them would just head down to look for the village chief with their family and verify their identity. Therefore, the ages on their passports are not too reliable. Most foreign maids come from poorer, not well-to-do backgrounds and are constantly in need of money to support their family. Once the kids are deemed capable enough to work, parents would usually have no qualms about faking their ages just to send them overseas so as to earn an extra income for the family. Now as the benchmark (having at least 8 years of schooling) and minimum age requirement for the maids are increased so as to provide customers with better services, the maids get desperate and try to “lie” their way in hoping that they will not get exposed somehow. Surprisingly, many of them, like Nurhayati, got away with it unquestioned because it was difficult to determine their ages based on their looks alone.
When I first read this article, I was shocked. I was really unaware that maids were faking their ages so that they could get themselves employed. Maybe they were desperate, but I just think it’s absolutely absurd that someone aged sixteen can be entrusted to be the care-giver of (dare I might say) someone who is not much younger than the maid herself. Although I agree that maturity has nothing to do with one’s age, but surely sixteen is too young? No matter how matured she is, she wouldn’t have as much experience or knowledge as someone who is over twenty four. This problem should be very vexing for many who are planning on employing a maid, or perhaps for some who already hired maids for they have no clue as to how old their maids are exactly, and how much trust can they place in them. I would feel that as customers, we should have rights to receive what we pay for. Since maids do not come cheap, how is it fair to the customers that they are receiving maids that do not pass the benchmark set by the MOM and yet are still paying so much for their maids? How is this fair to the employers that they are putting their child at great risk placing them in care of their maids because they were falsely misled about the employee’s age? Just like the murder case involving young Nurhayati, many parents were unaware that their maids were underage and had trustingly placed more needy people such as the old, the sick, the young and the disabled under the care of the unqualified care-givers resulting in the tragedy to happen. Customers hire maids In hope of getting extra help for the caring of their loved ones and to run family errands when they are unable to do so. Now I cannot help but wonder how the customers would now be able to trust that they receive what they deserve, to at least get someone more qualified to take care of their loved ones in their place.
Although I understand that it is also hard on the maid agency to track down records that contain the maids’ real ages since there are so many maids on their books, I think there might be a more effective solution to the problem. As I had mentioned earlier on, maturity is in the state of the mind and not the age. Therefore, I feel that interviews or tests can be conducted on the maids to test if they are matured enough to handle more needy and demanding customers to lower the chances of accidents and problems happening. With this extra measure, I believe the public would be more assured about letting their maids take care of their loved ones and would help the public regain faith in maid agencies.
Never judge a book by its cover. Now when I look at the maids, I’ll never see them in the same way again.

Faulty diabetes strips recalled (The straits times, December 25, 2010)
An article review
Health books, vitamins, health drinks, health products can be seen lining shelves and shelves in stores nationwide. The demands for health products have been increasing as people become more and more health conscious. Pharmacies, medical stores and even Chinese medical halls have seen many loyal customers in the few years because people are finally starting to care. However, can we really trust all that’s written in the books, the medicine that’s prescribed by the stores, and the tests that we use?
The recent discovery of faulty diabetes strips have sent the Health Sciences Authority (HSA.) expressing concerns over the situation and volunteering to help in the recall of the product. The test strips was manufactured by Abbott Laboratories. The product was faulty and gives low, inaccurate sugar readings of the user and these false readings could, “cause patients whose blood sugar is in control to develop high sugar levels” because the patients would not pay attention to their diet and over indulge in sweet food items. It could also worsen the conditions of the patients who already have an existing diabetic condition, causing them to develop high blood sugar, excessive thirst, excessive urination, blurred vision, weakness, nausea and vomiting.
It is human to err, and sometimes it is normal to have an occasional slip up once in a while. Sometimes faulty products get manufactured but I believe as long as it is not done on purpose, it can’t really be blamed on anyone really. Abbot Laboratories’ faulty batch of diabetes strip may have been a human error, and to me, it is a mistake that is forgivable. However it is hard to say because I wasn’t affected by the product and it wouldn’t be fair for me to produce a judgment based solely on my opinion alone. For the patients who have used Abbott laboratories’ faulty test strips, I believe they would be perhaps angered by the lack of caution exercised by the company and the lack of action of the company in recalling the strips. Since a problem had already been detected, there seemed to be a lack of action on the company’s part in recalling the product and in salvaging the situation. There also did not seem to be any compensation of any sort to the consumers who were affected by the faulty strips. However, I also believe that while the company may be at fault, everyone is also responsible for his or her own health. We cannot fully depend on the test strips to produce a fully accurate result of our health condition. If we detect there is something amiss, do not trust the product fully, we should instead take the initiative and double check with our doctors before taking any action as any rash actions could worsen the current situation.
Health products and food products are the two lines of products which tend to affect our physical health conditions the most and I believe that the people working with the two kinds of products should exercise extra care and take extra precautions because consumer’s lives are in their hands. Therefore I hope that the company would educate the workers on the importance of not being complacent so that they would not allow any opportunities for mistakes to occur. The company should also be stringent in choosing materials that they are working with and checking if these products are reliable before using them.
I believe with combined efforts from the public and the industries, we would see less cases like these happening again. back to top?